We are tired of evenings that start with frantic phone calls from anxious relatives and friends. We are tired of turning on our television sets and drowning ourselves in a sea of shock, horror and fury. We are tired of being numbed by what we see. We are tired of keeping a track of rising death tolls. We are tired of news channels stoking passions and spreading rumours.We are tired of being clay pigeons at a shooting range. We are tired of being transformed from human beings to mangled pieces of blood and flesh.
We are tired of being vulnerable.We are tired of knowing that we are vulnerable. We are tired of being reminded that we are vulnerable. We are tired of knowing that we will remain vulnerable. We don't want to be widowed wives and orphaned children. We are tired of knowing that our lives are no longer precious. We are tired of knowing that there is nobody who can protect us. We are tired of knowing that we are not being protected by those who must protect us. We are tired of seeing gory images in newspapers. We are tired of watching news reporters asking questions like, "Kaisa lag raha hai?" and "Kaisa mahsoos hua?". We are pained to watch grieving relatives being tortured by everyone. We are tired of Shobhaa De and Rahul Bose representing Mumbaikars in times of adversity. We are tired of immature politicians making insensitive statements. We are tired of being assured that 'the perpetrators shall be punished'. Tell this to the little boy who lost his mother...tell this to the elderly father who still waits for his son to return.....define JUSTICE.
We are tired of being shepherded like sheep. We are tired of being shepherded by inefficient shepherds. We have the right to govern ourselves. We are yet to find the right way to govern ourselves. We are tired of emergency meetings and probationary committees. We are tired of ministers who play musical chairs. We are tired of being reminded that we are turning into a banana republic (or are we there already?). We are tired of people who plan candle marches and wear white to show 'solidarity'. We are tired of knowing the fact that most of these candle light marchers have never voted. We are tired of the terms 'Spirit of Mumbai' and 'Resilience'. Arre ghanta resilience! Do we have an option? Who'll feed our families? In a city that runs to survive, do you expect people to show up at work to 'teach the terrorists a lesson'? We are tired of terrorism. We are tired of the word 'terrorism'. We are tired of realising that it could have been you, me, your loved ones, anyone you know...... We shudder at the thought of that possibility. We are tired of shuddering.
We are tired of being assumed as morons. We are tired of intelligence failure. We wonder who is more intelligent then......
We are tired of ranting. We are tired of ranting like this:
http://hardikkothare.blogspot.com/2008/11/tolerance-limit-has-been-crossed.html
We know that we would have to rant again. We are tired of being a soft state. We are tired of being tolerant. We are tired of knowing that being intolerant is considered 'anti-national' and 'anti-father-of-the-nation'. We are tired of anachronistic concepts like 'ahimsa' when it comes to retaliation. We are tired of paying taxes to ensure maximum comfort for convicted murderers who waged war against our nation. We are tired of knowing that the dead shall not be avenged because we are too 'non-violent' to seek revenge. We are tired of offering our second cheek. We are tired of porous borders. We are tired of watching metal detectors being used as toys. We are tired of a fattu foreign policy which is as amorphous and abstract as anything can be.
We are tired of 2 post-blast weeks of inconclusive debates. We are tired of knowing that nobody would care a damn after 2 weeks. We are tired of being tired. I am tired to know that this is not the end. And I would be required to rant again.....I am tired of not knowing when....And I am proud to say that although the nation is tired of asking questions which do not have answers, the nation will never get tired of itself....we are tired of consoling ourselves but we are not tired of saying JAI HIND....and I find comfort in this fact.
(In memory of every single person who had the honour of dying for our motherland....especially those who lost their lives in the serial train blasts that ripped Mumbai 5 years ago on this day of Guru Pournima....)
